somewhere.

I’m about to admit an embarrassing fact about the television habits in my house. Here goes. Much to my daughter’s chagrin, we are Hallmark watchers. Christmas really gets us and then we’re hooked. So there. It’s out. There’s a series we’ve watched on that network from which one of the main characters was fired (in real life) because

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Imposter.

Do you ever want to scream, “I’M NOT WHO YOU THINK I AM?”

I had a conversation with a friend the other day, granted she wasn’t a close, every-day-type of friend, but I’ve known her for a long time. Throughout the visit she’d make references to things that were hard like she needed to somehow explain to me what a tough season of

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364 Days

It’s New Year’s Day. We had plans to go to dinner with some dear friends last night and just enjoy the evening and instead we were home. My Scott hasn’t been feeling well and today he just feels crummy. To top it off, he went to an after hours clinic this morning and ended up being there for three hours - THREE HOURS. We have a tradition of spending New Year’s Day with my family at my brother’s — just food

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Stop Listening.

I learned something this week. As you know, I’ve been in a bit of a funk — this place of life where it seems like I’m not moving forward. I have plenty going on, a lot of irons in the fire, but it’s like I’m spinning in circles and always end up back at the same place. Like a treadmill, if you will. I’ve been on a mission to find a way to shake this

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progress.

My name is Marian and I have a problem. I push myself. I stretch what I can do and when I can do it into an ability and a timeframe that isn’t reasonable. I want my dissertation to be finished, I want to lose 30-40 lbs., I want to do yoga at least

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drift.

I have a favorite scripture from the Message translation. The way it reads. The way the words just lay it out there. Straight talk. (That’s my favorite kind.) Read it for yourself.

“So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you:  Take your everyday, ordinary life --- your sleeping, eating, going to work, and walking around life --- and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for Him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without…

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SEASONS.

I’m in Vermont with a friend/colleague for a conference that starts tomorrow. Several times today we went for walks up and down the hilly streets, eyes peeled around us to see the colors. The high today was mid 50s and unlike Oklahoma there was no wind. Not even a breeze. Everything was…

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another birthday.

I had a birthday last week. It’s almost the big birthday. I’m 49 — and holding on tight! I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about the brevity of life and about why I’m really on this earth. Just like many of you, I have more tasks than hours most days. I love my job, but I have…

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lavender.

There just aren’t a lot of things that a hot lavender bath won’t make a little better. I mean a hot bath is pretty great just by itself, but you add some lavender bath salts or lavender bubble bath and, well, you’ve just stepped up your game. This bubble bath from

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heaven.

Last week my sweet mother-in-law went home to heaven.  She has battled heart disease for some time and it was finally just too much.  Over the last few days of her life, I think we all knew she wasn't there.  I mean her body was in the room, but her spirit…

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hairpray.

I’m about to show my age here.  

I use hairspray.
I know young girls don’t use hairspray, but I’ll go ahead and say it, I’m not a young girl.
I need my hair - even if I’m trying…

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hospitals.

My Scott's sweet mom had a heart attack this morning.  I'll spare you the details, but it's not good.  She's only been home a couple of weeks from another heart incident in June and this one seems to be worse.  My heart breaks for Scott and his sister and their dad.  And then I look at my kids and my niece and nephew and…

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college.

The beginning and the end.  My daughter began her last year of college this week
and my niece started her first semester.  So many feels! I’m so
proud of these two. They really are something. I’m amazed that in
spite of their crazy parents they are who they are.    
College is a funny stage, isn’t it? You go in so excited about all…

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birthdays.

My husband had a birthday this week.  He's one year away from a "big one." 
Birthdays mean a lot to me.  [I mean, the alternative isn't great.]
When I think about the fact that there was a day in August that was random…

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Spirit lead me.

Do you ever hear a song that shakes you?  Like both hands on your shoulders, shakes you? 
This song by Influence Music stopped me in my tracks.
Here's the chorus:

If You say "it's wrong", then I'll say "no"
If You say "release", I'm letting go
If You're in it with me…

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